1. 今すぐ声が聞きたい
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shadowHrmmm... I get the feeling I seriously need to double check the prologue. Either that or I have a similar scene somewhere else and I'm misremembering where it should be. I keep feeling like something's missing. >.>
Anyhow, the first topic. It's a short one. ^^; Poor Mai...? Again not edited or anything at the moment. (I know, I know. I'm being very lazy and sloppy. ^^; )
It's been one week since I saw Naru off at the airport and I've barely slept a wink during that time. I can't help thinking about what Naru said when he left! But it's not like I can just up and go to England either.
England...
...the place he's at now,
...and also the place where my answer's waiting for me.
But which answer??
The answer to the question I asked at that time?
Or the one to my telling him how I felt??
That question's been bugging me so much that I haven't been able to sleep at all this past week. Damn that self-centered mad scientist! I want to phone the guy right now, but... I have no idea when I should call considering the time difference. Not to mention this is Naru we're talking about, so it's hard to say if he'd even answer the phone...
I glared at the photo next to my bed. It was the photo of Naru and Gene that Naru gave me four years ago.
I really did love Gene. Thinking of Gene always gives me a sense of warmth and gentleness, but his brother Naru... I didn't get any such warm and fuzzy feelings thinking about that guy. Annoyance, anger, and frustration tends to dominate whenever I think about him. That guy really does drive me up the wall.
But a person's heart and love isn't dictated by logic. They can make you act without any thought whatsoever.
Even so, we're talking about England here. True, it's not like a hundred years ago when this sort of distance would've been almost insurmountable, but we're still talking overseas. And add to that a certain very difficult somebody, and it becomes a definite problem. I guess if I really wanted to go, I could but...
I glared at my cell phone. I want to phone him right now and here his voice but... at the same time, I don't. What'll happen if I do?! Will it make me happy? Sad? Or maybe...?
......For some reason, I get the feeling it'll make me feel pathetic...
But there's an even bigger problem before that.
When Naru left, he said, 'if you want an answer, you'll have to come to England for it, Mai.' So even if I did phone him, I doubt he'd give me my answer. He's that kind of guy, after all.
Hmm... truth to be told, I do want to phone him. I want to phone him right now and hear his voice.
...And the instant I hear his voice, I want to reach through the phone line like an evil spirit and strangle the idiot. Naru has no idea how much I've thought about what happened at the airport over this past week. ......Not that he'd even be interested. And he has no idea that I've been dwelling on it so much either!
No doubt, he's living as he always does while I'm here struggling with that incident......
That especially annoys me.
“I want to hear his voice... but I'm not phoning.”
I'm not giving in that easily!
Anyhow, the first topic. It's a short one. ^^; Poor Mai...? Again not edited or anything at the moment. (I know, I know. I'm being very lazy and sloppy. ^^; )
It's been one week since I saw Naru off at the airport and I've barely slept a wink during that time. I can't help thinking about what Naru said when he left! But it's not like I can just up and go to England either.
England...
...the place he's at now,
...and also the place where my answer's waiting for me.
But which answer??
The answer to the question I asked at that time?
Or the one to my telling him how I felt??
That question's been bugging me so much that I haven't been able to sleep at all this past week. Damn that self-centered mad scientist! I want to phone the guy right now, but... I have no idea when I should call considering the time difference. Not to mention this is Naru we're talking about, so it's hard to say if he'd even answer the phone...
I glared at the photo next to my bed. It was the photo of Naru and Gene that Naru gave me four years ago.
I really did love Gene. Thinking of Gene always gives me a sense of warmth and gentleness, but his brother Naru... I didn't get any such warm and fuzzy feelings thinking about that guy. Annoyance, anger, and frustration tends to dominate whenever I think about him. That guy really does drive me up the wall.
But a person's heart and love isn't dictated by logic. They can make you act without any thought whatsoever.
Even so, we're talking about England here. True, it's not like a hundred years ago when this sort of distance would've been almost insurmountable, but we're still talking overseas. And add to that a certain very difficult somebody, and it becomes a definite problem. I guess if I really wanted to go, I could but...
I glared at my cell phone. I want to phone him right now and here his voice but... at the same time, I don't. What'll happen if I do?! Will it make me happy? Sad? Or maybe...?
......For some reason, I get the feeling it'll make me feel pathetic...
But there's an even bigger problem before that.
When Naru left, he said, 'if you want an answer, you'll have to come to England for it, Mai.' So even if I did phone him, I doubt he'd give me my answer. He's that kind of guy, after all.
Hmm... truth to be told, I do want to phone him. I want to phone him right now and hear his voice.
...And the instant I hear his voice, I want to reach through the phone line like an evil spirit and strangle the idiot. Naru has no idea how much I've thought about what happened at the airport over this past week. ......Not that he'd even be interested. And he has no idea that I've been dwelling on it so much either!
No doubt, he's living as he always does while I'm here struggling with that incident......
That especially annoys me.
“I want to hear his voice... but I'm not phoning.”
I'm not giving in that easily!
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Date: 2008-09-21 01:45 am (UTC)I didn't get any such warm and fuzzy feelings thinking about that guy.
I don't get... Ara, and this is love? ^^
Yeah for second post!
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Date: 2008-09-21 04:40 pm (UTC)Thanks for the English update!